sun 16 jun 02
alas, this post does not mean i'm returning in full-blown dm! style. this week, i still need to grind on about three more projects. but i felt the need to flip the page, make a new entry, blow off some thought-steam.
my self-imposed exile from weblog-land has been refreshing. like the 'tyranny of film' [when you carry a camera, you look for photos ... not for memory], i find that there exists such a thing as 'tyranny of the weblog.' i look over some of my more prolific days, and wonder at the sanity level of that individual. linking as reflex. linking as blinking. linking as salivating. pavlov. my aggregators ring bells, and i salivate in public. good grief. who's the sentient being here?
time to regain depth and perspective. good timing, methinks.
in my spare time (and wonders never cease ... stop weblogging, and there's plenty of spare time), i've been reading some robert louis stevenson (again), from 'the art of writing':
"there is nothing more disenchanting to man than to be shown the springs and mechanism of any art. all our arts and occupations lie wholly on the surface; it is on the surface that we perceive their beauty, fitness, and significance; and to pry below is to be appalled by their emptiness and shocked by the coarseness of the strings and pulleys. in a similar way, psychology itself, when pushed to any nicety, discovers an abhorrent baldness, but rather from the fault of our analysis than from any poverty native to the mind. and perhaps in aesthetics the reason is the same: those disclosures which seem fatal to the dignity of art seem so perhaps only in the proportion of our ignorance; and those conscious and unconscious artifices which it seems unworthy of the serious artist to employ were yet, if we had the power to trace them to their springs, indications of a delicacy of the sense finer than we conceive, and hints of ancient harmonies in nature. this ignorance at least is largely irremediable. we shall never learn the affinities of beauty, for they lie too deep in nature and too far back in the mysterious history of man. the amateur, in consequence, will always grudgingly receive details of method, which can be stated but never can wholly be explained; nay, on the principle laid down in 'hudibras', that 'still the less they understand, the more they admire the sleight-of-hand,' many are conscious at each new disclosure of a diminution in the ardour of their pleasure. i must therefore warn that well-known character, the general reader, that i am here embarked upon a most distasteful business: taking down the picture from the wall and looking on the back; and, like the inquiring child, pulling the musical cart to pieces."
i love that.
have a great week. i may be posting again in full form later on this week; wednesday would be the earliest, i believe.