wed 13 mar 02
does not deal with us. we have no reason
to show death admiration, love or hate;
his mask of feigned tragic lament gives us
a false impression. the world's stage is still
filled with roles which we play. while we worry
that our performances may not please,
death also performs, although to no applause.
but as you left us, there broke upon this stage
a glimpse of reality, shown through the slight
opening through which you disappeared: green,
evergreen, bathed in sunlight, actual woods.
we keep on playing, still anxious, our difficult roles
declaiming, accompanied by matching gestures
as required. but your presence so suddenly
removed from our midst and from our play, at times
overcomes us like a sense of that other
reality: yours, that we are so overwhelmed
and play our actual lives instead of the performance,
forgetting altogether the applause.
- rainer marie rilke, on hearing of a death.
my god. i just got a call: one of my best friends while i was in college, and a former relative by marriage, has been murdered. she was a great person, and someone who gave of herself to make me who i am today. we had just made contact again after 20 years; email. just last month. i couldn't figure out why she hadn't written back. now i know, and i wish i didn't know. i think i will have to climb a local mountaintop, and do a tobacco offering to the four directions, for her soul's sake. i honour her memory.
"in a world where there is a common lament that there are no more heroes, too often cynicism and despair are perceived as evidence of the death of moral courage. that perception is wrong. people of great valor and heart, committed to noble purpose, with long records of personal sacrifice, walk among us in every country of the world."
- kerry kennedy cuomo.
can i convince someone to do my work for me, for free? i want to go out and play ...
linuxworld: how to get linux on your corporate desktop.
cnet: new file system for windows?
guardian.uk: realities intrude on bush's war plans.
national center for policy analysis: are environmentalists toxic to recycling jobs?. what a bizarre article.
the obvious? celebrates a year.
yeah, so ... i'm missing princeton at the moment. i'll get reoriented; a good walk in the mountains usually does it. this weekend ...
the new yorker: raw deal. looking at poker. if you want to approach poker definitively, you simply must read 'strategy in poker, business and war', mcdonald, 1950 ... and the text it attempts to summarize, "theory of games and economic behavior," von neumann and morgenstern, princeton university press. you will be blinded by brilliance. allow a couple of months for initial soak-in.
post-gazette: how radio picks their songs. "for a handful of listeners, that predictability is frustrating. for others, it's kind of comforting." my fave station was wmmr in philly; in the late 70's, they only played b-sides and albums ... encouraging the purchase of albums over singles. they ruled. then they got bought out. in my head, i still unconsciously compare all radio stations to their excellent model.
nandotimes: sony, and bogus music reviews. "sony, 20th century fox, artisan entertainment and universal pictures later admitted using employees or actors in tv commercials purporting to feature testimonials from moviegoers." personally, i watch for other webloggers' reviews. after reading for a while, one can tell who has similar tastes.
bbc: 'body worlds' gets a few protests from conservative politicos in britain. will it come to america? what will the reception be? the mind boggles.
faz: rebuilding frankfurt's old public library. i always prefer a faithful reproduction, recognizing the 'inefficiencies.' but then, you knew that. princeton university is littered with attempts to 'update' gothic, with mixed results ...
times of india: china's jiang urges army to be ready for struggle. "china last week announced a hefty 17.6 per cent hike in its defence budget for 2002." the new arms race, courtesy of america's cold war administration ... ?
times of india: one-third of children in the developing world are malnourished.
times of india: 'cow urine has medicinal value.' er, could you put it in gelcaps, please?
times of india: the corrugated road. simple, brilliant. why didn't anyone think of this before? ever driven a dirt road with rills in it? yow. it'll knock your fillings out ...
times of india: cdc lab worker contracts skin anthrax from last fall's specimens. careful.
times of india: the united nations says fears of exploding world population are easing.
ny times science: peering through the gates of time. dr. john archibald wheeler at princeton.
ny times travel: the chiricahua mountains.
ny times: second thoughts on mercury in fish? dancing to a different tun-a.
ny times/ap: farmer: speeders killed my cats. caltrops work, too.
santa fe new mexican: comcast cable modems are coming! comcast cable modems are coming! november, for where i live. plus, they'll probably dig up my property; their cable easement follows one side of my property line. good thing i didn't plant trees there ...
cnn: remains of 11 firefighters, 2 civilians found at ground zero. the remains of the staircases must be heartbreaking to uncover.
cnn: study finds trace amounts of chemicals in our nation's streams. not just pcb's though ... acetaminophen and antibiotics?!
hmmm. in mozilla 0.9.9, win2k, my sidebar is intermittent. i have to turn off, then on, the checkmarks in the tab pulldown every morning.
i'm just so busy at the moment, blogging just has to take a back seat. i should get over this hump sometime this week, i think.
it's 50 already.